On the Charleston Shooting Aftermath

I'm hearing a lot of stuff after this mess happened. People are trying to play ally as if they actually cared. Here's what I have to say about it:

For those who say that "we're all human" and "we're all equal" rhetoric:

If we're so "equal" and "human" why do we get killed because of racist people? Why do we have to deal with racist tendencies just for existing? Why do you think WE (Black people) are the ones who have to "confront racism" when we aren't the ones acting like damn fools whenever Black people dare to fuck up their lily White atmospheres at any given moment in time? Why do you tell Black people to practice love, throw out some bible verse, or start talking about praying in order to quell or scare, or silence our grievances?

Confronting racism is White people's work. Not Black people's.
Black people: Stop trying to side with these liberal fools. They'll turn on you and smile as they do it. Pay attention and watch how they move.

White people (and any folks who fit) : Stop asking Black people about how to confront racism. After all, we aren't the ones dishing it out.

PSA: to all White people who feel slighted by what I just said:
Racists are using you as a target to hide behind. Are you willing to let them do that to you in order to hold on to your job, your money, your friends, your family, your so called livelihood? Because that's what you're doing.

Let this be known. I have had a lot of practice in losing. I lost family when I was very small. I lost family just because I was born.
I know what it's like to be truly alone in this world. I'm not talking about being around friends/family, etc and feeling lonely.
I'm talking being completely solitary. I'm talking about not talking to people I lived with for years at a time. I'm talking about not talking to people even though we shared a room, clothes and a bed.
I'm talking about going to school and not saying shit the entire day. For weeks at a time. I'm talking about walking the halls while muting out all sounds just to fight back tears. And then going home and not saying shit to anybody unless they say something to me first. And doing the same thing while working. I did that for eleven years back to back, starting from aged 6.

So if I could face the world while dealing with all of what I dealt with (without going into too much detail) , then you could stand to walk using your own two feet without standing on the backs of other people. You can be accountable without throwing other people under the bus and coming up with elaborate excuses to justify shitty behavior by people who look like you.

But I'm wasting time writing this because whenever Black people talk, we're just talking niggers to these people. That's why if we speak "proper" (which really translates to above fifth grade American English), it's noted that we "speak so well", but nothing actually sinks into the mind of the person we're "speaking at". If we're eloquent, THEN we're "articulate and smart" but still, nothing sinks in. If we offer suggestions or ask questions while at work, we're contrarians and we aren't team players because nothing sinks in.

White people, fix your shit. It isn't up to Black people to do that. That's YOUR fucking house. This ain't "The Help" nor is it "The Butler". I'm not here for making you feel all warm and fuzzy. Seek that out in your partner. I'm not here to mentally jack you off, nor do I seek that in you.

This will be the only post I will make regarding this sort of thing in regards to White people and their peculiarities when it comes to dealing with Black people.

And American media needs to stop asking Black people to speak on what to do about racism. They're the spin doctors of this shit. How about stop spreading the ‪‎fuckery‬?! That's a basic ass solution. Stop asking Black people to play Blues Clues with your grown ig'nant asses.

America goes full retard all day, every day.
And anybody who wants to focus on feeling hurt after reading this can GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE WITH THAT BULLSHIT.

Ole cowardly, non executive decision making asses. [/rant]

I Can't Anymore.

Sigh.


I saw this article where Chicago police were posing with guns in a photo with a Black man wearing antlers. They have this Black dude dressed as a deer.

They clearly see Black people as animals to be hunted.

Am I surprised?  Hell no, I'm not surprised. I'd have to be born yesterday or be from another planet in order to be surprised by this. The evidence has been there for years.

In my experience with police, and other White people in positions they feel are more"powerful" than mine, they act like this.

White people working in shopping centers and grocery stores all across the country will stalk Black people in hopes to catch them "in the act". They will even stalk Black people in states where there aren't many Black people.  Hell, they will even let White people steal from their stores as long as they have a single Black person in the vicinity to make sure they aren't the ones stealing stuff.
They will stalk us in museums, they will stalk us in our own neighborhoods, and I'm sure they'd stalk us while using the bathroom if they could.

Because deep down inside, they want to catch their very own Negro, and get recognition for it (if you really look at these situations) be it through police work, through satisfying carnal urges, shits and giggles or, anything that allows the chance to get a pat on the back, I mean anything.

And they do it to the point of compromising themselves and their characters. They're willing to sink so low that they even pretend to be Black on the internet in order to win arguments on race.
It's like they can't stand on their own even if they needed to save their own life. And they will sacrifice their own in order to not be accountable for anything.

It reminds me of the "(insert dead White person) was killed by a Black person. Why didn't anybody rally for (the name of the dead White person)?" argument.

But when you look into all of the situation, that Black person was locked up for their crime, and justice had been served.

But the person with that shoddy argument didn't care enough about the dead White person to do any research on the situation. They just threw one of their own under the bus so they could justify their racism, fuckery, and disgusting behavior.  In reality, they never cared about the dead White person. They just care about maintaining the circle jerk.

They will even excuse child molestation just so they could keep up the illusion provided by a tv show to the point of creating petitions. 

They want to act like they really care about their communities, but will go through lengths to hide crime in their own neighborhoods by relying on race statistics, and profiling anybody who isn't White. But then cry about how nobody cares when White people die. They will call their neighborhoods safe, but will justify shitty behavior and crime just to keep up the illusion.

The Waco Texas Biker shooting is a great example. They straight up had a gang rivalry shootout at a biker bar where nine people were killed, and eighteen were injured. Not only that, when the police came, both gangs teamed up to shoot at the police, and they did it with real live bullets.  The police confiscated 200 guns and they are still counting (it's up to 317 at the moment). The gangs even hid several of the guns in strategic areas!


They also had the luxury of getting apprehended, and arrested after the fact. I mean, look at this pic. It looks like a fucking tailgating party or something. SMMFH

No media outlets called the bikers thugs, hoodlums, or other unsavory language. Instead, the media was very careful to call the group a "club" and refer to them as "enthusiasts".  They're trying to hush this thing up and get it out of the news as soon as possible.

In fact, the media does this with many crimes involving White people. They call these situations, "brawls", fights, incidents, and they use extremely soft language. And when it gets questioned, they say the media reported it as "hard news" and didn't insert any feelings into it. Well, nobody had anything to say when Black people were being called thugs by the media. Nobody batted an eyelash when the protesters were called "violent", "terrorists", and all sorts of unsavory things.

But Mike Brown was the thug who deserved to die for not staying on the sidewalk and being accused of stealing. His killer was given a million dollars and he got the chance to do an exclusive interview.

But Tamir Rice was charged with "aggravated menacing" and "inducing panic" while playing with a toy gun.

But according to these people, Walter Scott deserved to die because he ran. BUT people neglect to understand why. He ran because he didn't want to go to jail due to back child support. They never cared to find out if he was working to pay it off.

I refuse to believe people are that basic. I refuse to believe that people are unable to see the fuckery going on here. I refuse to believe that a people who love to brag about what makes them "great" (the word 'great' being used subjectively of course) don't have the brains to go, "HEY! All of this is fucked up! All of it!"

These same people will kiss a dog in and on the mouth  but will fix their faces to give interracial couples death threats, and the result may still cause somebody to get lynched.

Really?!  They are definitely NOT that stupid. Delusional, psychotic, sociopathic and narcissistic maybe. But not stupid.

And OH! The gas-lighting!

For those who don't know what gaslighting is, here's the definition as defined by wikipedia:

Gaslighting or gas-lighting is a form of mental abuse in which information is twisted or spun, selectively omitted to favor the abuser, or false information is presented with the intent of making victims doubt their own memory, perception, and sanity.

This is a common tactic used by people suffering from Narcissistic Personality disorder. If you'd like more information on that, here is one particular source, however there are plenty more out there. Check out as many as you can to see what I'm talking about.

That being said, I'm fucking DONE. I'm all the way finished. I can't do this anymore.

No, I'm not thinking about killing myself, but I am definitely killing any and all fuckery in my life that encompasses the shit I've been exposed to. I've been cutting folks off, and keeping as much distance as I can with people. I'm watching people, and getting everything in place. I can't and will not deal with people invested in maintaining that shit show I mentioned above. And anybody who dares to try to tell me anything against what I'm saying can GET ALL THE FUCK OUT OF HERE WITH THAT BULLSHIT.  I may not even tell them to sit they asses all the way down either. There really is no telling what would happen. As young White girls say, "I can't even ..." 

And I will not even.

And if any readers choose to omit anything I say based on grammar and punctuation, then they can GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE AND SIT THEIR PUNK ASSES ALL THE WAY DOWN. Because if you really gave a damn about what was going on, you wouldn't focus on something that fucking petty.

Black History Month Post

I thought I wasn't going to post anything about Black history because we get the same old shit told to us each and every year. In fact, we get it so much that somebody came up with a Black History Bingo card and was generous enough to make a duplicate so you can play with a friend! Just print them out, get some pennies or something to mark off your "findings" and there you go! It's a fun game for everyone:

Here's hoping you have a brighter February.  Thanks to this card, I already am. :)  So far, I've got 3 of them :  fried chicken, "why can't we move on", and self segregation .  At this rate, by the end of the month, I may have a Bingo! [/sarcasm]